Maybe I’m feeling somewhat melancholy, rushing the seasons or being just a little crazy. The turning leaves are only just beginning and I’m already thinking about this year coming to an end. It could have something to do with summer being over or that football season is in full swing. It’s probably that Christmas tree I bought last week!
This year will go down in the history of my life as the year of The Wait. He said, “Wait.” And I
learned tried to wait.
Back in January, I wrote a post about my OneWord365 for the New Year. You can read it HERE. The word was Wait. I thought I knew. I honestly thought I had some clue of what this would mean.
Ever had an experience like this one? You’re in line at the drive-through. The line is long and tempers are growing short. The cashier is rude and they’ve messed up your order.
Right as you’re about to be rude back…there’s that still, small voice. Wait. Or, maybe it’s a little louder than a still, small voice, considering you’re about to use your loud voice in the drive-through. Wait.
Or, what about this one? You’re caught in an uncomfortable situation where you are wishing you could disappear. “God, help me get through this,” you breathe. And you start looking for a way out – somewhere to run. Wait.
Welcome to my life. Over and over – in the big and the small. Initially, it was frustrating. There were things I needed to hear from God on.
As it turns out, The Wait actually became a comfort. I asked God for answers and then everywhere I turned, I heard wait – in every sermon, song, book and conversation. Wait. Countless times over the past nine+ months, I felt myself being pulled-up-short – in The Wait.
Ever been pulled-up-short?
Here’s another example: Your bank account simply does not have enough money to pay what’s due – right now! You attempt to make it through the day – maybe you’re on the job and trying to concentrate – worry and stress overwhelms you.
You cry out on the inside, “God, what are we going to do?” Wait. You are longing to hear from God. No, you’ve got to hear from God. Wait.
Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord. Psalm 27.14 (Amp)
I’ve almost come to expect it. That still, small voice. In the beginning, it would take a while before I got it. Now, I often smile. Sometimes I say softly, “Yes, waiting.”
Like the turning leaves, maybe I’m turning the corner to a new season.
What does this mean? What does it require? If life, we may long for a new season and God will give us this, over and again. But a new season is usually preceded by a blowing and bending. There may even be some things that need to whither, break off and crumble away before a new season can begin.
How has the year been for you? Has it been kind – gentle – painful – hard? Are you relishing in all it’s brought? Or, maybe you’re looking forward to tucking its memories far into the past when December 31st rolls around.
If you feel pulled-up-short in The Wait, ask God what He wants to teach you. I know some of you are waiting on big, heavy things. I’m in no way making light of the seriousness of what you are dealing with.
What are we to do, though, but leave it in His hands?
It’s saying, “God, use this situation to grow me. I’m exhausted and at the end. Please take this.” In this approach, somehow, there is peace – in The Wait – and in the turning of the season.
As we release what we’re carrying, Grace says, “It’s okay. I’ve got this.”